For the most part, eating healthy and exercising is really helping my moods. I’m less paranoid, more positive, and I feel more proud of myself. Most of the time.

Yesterday, I felt incredibly lonely. I was looking through old friends’ profiles on social networking sites (Myspace, Facebook, etc.) and saw them all graduating college, hanging out with friends, going on vacations, going to parties… All the things that I don’t do, and may never do. I started thinking about deleting them all off of my lists. I mean, they don’t message me or anything, and we don’t talk, despite my efforts, so why bother? But a part of me feels like I’ll regret it. Like if I delete them, it’s the final straw - that’s it. No chance at ever being friends again.

Maybe it’ll give me a push to make more friends out here, but I can wish that all I want, it won’t happen. I have no way of meeting people out here. Seriously. I don’t get it, because it’s like there’s a strange age gap. There must be no 22 year old women in Halifax, besides myself. That’s it! Just me! Otherwise, where are they? Where are they hiding? And how do I make friends? It’s something you learn in Kindergarten, yet I still obviously can not grasp the concept.

Any advice?