It’s 2:38 in the morning.

I’m watching old Boy Meets World episodes. I can not sleep.

I’m copying my Sex and the City episodes over to my laptop because apparently watching them over the network doesn’t work. Fabulous, right?

Ugh. I want to sleep. I can not get comfy.

I’m getting very excited to see Matt again. I thought about going out to the grocery store tonight, and I might still, but I don’t think I will. Maybe tomorrow. It means getting gas, like I said, so that’s fairly unappealing to me. But I’ll have to do it anyway, so… I don’t know.

I’m trying a new diet. Mainly it’s just eating healthier foods and doing more exercise, but I’m using SparkPeople to keep track of everything. I’m also going to try following their meal plans. Matt has said that he’ll try to follow it with me, so that I have some support. It also means he gets three “real” meals a day, so that’s a big bonus for him!

I’m still playing The Sims 2. I’ve got my Legacy family to generation 3 now. My first generation are both elders. My 2nd generation has an adult male, his wife, a daughter that’s at college and another daughter that is still a child. My third generation has a daughter that’s a child and another on the way. The 2nd generation’s Sims’ lifetime goals are to have three children go off to college, so I need to have three children from them in order to do that!

I just finished watching Bewitched and was happy to hear the song in the closing credits: Every Little Thing She Does is Magic. It’s a fun song. Remember when Chris Sligh sang it on AI? I think that was the night before he got voted off. Hm. Nobody got voted off tonight, which wasn’t as “shocking” as Ryan kept saying it would be. Probably because he kept going on about how “shocking” the results would be. This means there will be two people voted off next week. To be honest, I’m kinda hoping it will be LaKisha and Chris Richardson. Though he did well this week. Until he stood up, anyway. That boy can not stand and sing at the same time.

The bigger deal of tonight’s show was the focus on the little kids and their families. My heart went out to every single one of them. It wasn’t even something that I could cry about - I was just in shock. It’s very sad that the world has come to millionaires and billionaires in one part of the world, and parentless, HIV-positive children in another part. It’s unnecessary and depressing.

I can’t believe the month is almost over. It’s getting very exciting! I’m looking forward to picking Matt up at the airport and bringing him back home and snuggling. It will be a huge relief after all this time apart.

I had to handle a phone call for myself today. I had a mini-panic attack but ended up okay. It was nice to know that I could handle something like that without Matt here. Still, I prefer him holding my hand. I’m weak, what can I say?

I think I’ve fixed my computer. Or at least, fixed it to the best of my ability until I get my new power supply. I’m playing the Sims 2 right now, which is why this post will be super short. I’ve started a new Legacy family and intend to go quite a ways with this one. I want to get all the way through the 10th generation! So here’s hoping, haha.

I’ve made a list of things that I need to do before Matt gets home. You know, vacuum, do laundry, clean the bookshelf. All the stuff I’ve made a mini-mess of since I’ve been sick. I’m trying a new system: I wrote each chore down on a Post-It (Post-Its are my friends. I love them!) and stuck them to the front of a notebook in a grid. When I finish the chore, I get to throw the Post-It away. It’s almost a mental thing - you know, once I get the chore done, it’s out of my mind and off of the notebook and I no longer have to worry about it!

Anyway, I’m off to take care of my poor pregnant Sim. She’s miserable!

SIX DAYS LEFT!

I’m so looking forward to Matt coming back. It won’t be long now!

My birthday is in 10 days. It reminds me that I’m essentially alone here, but I’m hoping I can get Matt to take me downtown or something. I’m sure he won’t want to go downtown, but I think it’s what I want. I’ll leave it up to him, though, I think. He did a spectacular job with surprising me for my birthday last year, so I’m sure he’ll be great again this year.

So, today was spent sleeping until 5pm (yes, that late, I’m still sick), waking up with another nosebleed and then fighting with our computers. It seems my computer won’t even start now, so I’m glad Matt ordered a new power supply for it and that it will be here sometime this week. His computer seems to have issues with the graphics card or something, because when I go to start the Sims 2, the computer either freezes or restarts. How frustrating.

Today is just boring. I keep playing games but they keep crashing. I was in Second Life but it kept crashing to the desktop and giving me runtime errors. Lovely, huh? Eve did that a few times, too. But I’m playing it right now, doing some missions. I want to pack things and get rid of stuff in the storage room, but there’s so much that I hardly know where to begin. I might get a box out after this mission, though. A little bit at a time, and I might actually be able to get rid of some of the crap that is haunting this way-too-cluttered house. When we move (in June) I don’t want to be living in a tiny apartment with a million years’ worth of doubles of crap that wasn’t necessary in the first place, you know? I’m a no-clutter person.

In Second Life, I made a group for Lavish members. It’s so cool to see a bunch of us coming together in there! I still remember meeting Matt in there and how great it felt to have someone that I connected with that well.