Words Unspoken|Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten.

…I’ve opened up this page probably ten times today to post, and haven’t had a ton to say. I don’t know why, really. I’m just moody lately.

Yesterday was eventful. I ate everything in sight the night before (bad, I know) and was feeling horribly guilty about it, but I was feeling too down/lazy to want to go to the gym. Finally Matt told me to gather stuff up for the storm today, so I had to go to Superstore, so I had to go to the gym. Why go to Superstore on a gym day (every other day) if I wasn’t going to go to the gym?

I worked harder at the gym than I have yet. I didn’t do any ab-work because I was too embarrassed, which I need to get over. But I did 30 minutes on the bike at level 6 (I’m usually doing it on level 1, sometimes 2), then 12 minutes on the elliptical, doubling my first time and adding two minutes since last time. A bit of an improvement. I also added 5 pounds to some of the weights that I was using. I felt better and walked into the grocery store smiling afterward.

I spent a bit of time gathering food/supplies and checked out. The lines were seriously long since everyone was preparing for the storm. I didn’t mind too much, though. There was a couple two places in front of me that I was terribly curious of. They had six jugs of cat litter (no joke!), 40 or so cans of spaghetti/ravioli/canned veggies, and all in all had almost $400 worth of groceries. I wonder how much the cat litter was alone! What surprised me was that they only had litter and no cat food. Either they really hate buying litter, or they were doing something with it today. Maybe they live on a hill and needed sandbags or something, I don’t know. Anyway, it was an interesting sight.

From there, I started to drive home. Same way I drive home every other day. “Photograph” by Nickelback came on and I felt really emotional for some reason and started crying, and then managed to get lost. In the tiny (10 minutes? Tops?) drive home, I got lost. So lost, in fact, that I could have visited Amy, for those of you who know where she/I live(s). For those of you that don’t… I went about a half hour out of the way to get home - 10 minutes from the grocery store. Seriously. How I did that, I’ll never know.

Today, we’ve got a huge storm. Hurricane Noel, to be exact. I’ve never seen a hurricane in person - not even the tail end of one, so I don’t know what to expect. Matt’s all excited, but I just hope the power doesn’t go out. Just in case, I have plenty of candles and I even got Clue yesterday (not to mention we have Monopoly, too!) to keep us occupied.

If the weather’s not too bad tomorrow, I’ll be going back to the gym. I’ll forgive myself if I skip tomorrow and start a new routine the day after because of the weather. I’m still beating myself up over all the junk food lately. Chips, lasagna, chocolate… I just feel horrible about it all. I know I can get back on track, that’s not the question. The question is how? And when? I can’t keep putting it off. I’m hovering at a weight that I don’t like, and I want to see results! I think that’s part of what’s got me so down lately. It really is a vicious cycle. I “screw up” on my eating, then I get depressed. Because I’m depressed, I eat everything in sight, which spins me back toward feeling depressed yet again. I want out of this cycle!

Seriously, I should. I’ve said goodnight to my internet friends, logged the last of my food for the day, done the dishes, swept up the bathroom for the second time tonight (more on that later!) and brushed my teeth. Therefore, I should be in bed.

I had a lot of thoughts in my head, though, so I figured a quick blog post couldn’t hurt. Then I’m going to snuggle in bed with Matt and the kitten and put on an On Demand movie. Then dream-time, and hoping it’s not as bad as last night’s! That thing was insane, and it scared me!

Let’s see. Random thoughts everywhere. How about a list?

- Heating pads work wonders for sore wrists! It still hurts a bit, but not nearly as bad. Any improvement is good enough for me, I suppose!

- I’m very happy with my food log for today. I feel like I’m making healthy choices without much thought now, and that’s good! Habits are forming, lifestyle is changing, and I’m on the road to success!

- My legs are sore from all this walking. I’m supposed to do a half hour of walking every day, according to You: On A Diet. So far, the past few days, I’ve done it. I walked to Superstore, I walked around Superstore, I’ve even done laps around my kitchen and living room! Tomorrow, I’ll probably end up doing laps again. And doing laundry, so that’s a bit of walking, too. Darned multi-story apartment buildings with washers and dryers in the basement!

- Speaking of laundry… I only have enough change for one load. Darn it. One thing that really bugs me about this building is that there’s no change machine! Apparently there used to be a convenience store downstairs, so I could have even bugged them for the change, but now? Nothing! Why they’d take the machine out is beyond me. But it’s very inconvenient! I don’t want to drive, like, 20 minutes just to do laundry! Not to mention I have no clean clothes, really, so I can’t go to the bank in my PJs!

- The whole sweeping the bathroom twice thing? Yeah, that’s courtesy of Mew Mew. She’s a fantastic kitten, who likes playing in her litter too much. I think we need to get her either a bigger litter box, or a covered one. Probably covered. If I go more than a day without sweeping the bathroom, you can’t walk in there without getting your feet covered in litter. Ew!

Anyway, these are the random thoughts running through my head at… Whoa! 2:00 AM? No wonder I’m tired! Off to bed I go!

I took a mini road trip with Amy today. It was so much fun! We went to the beach, and took lots of pictures.

After we went to the beach and stayed there for a few hours, we went to a gas station to get some banana bread from the Bluecanoe store (Why is it all one word? That bothers me!) - it’s the most fantastic banana bread other than homemade, and it even rivals that. We snuck it into a Starbucks, where we had nonfat Chai Tea Lattes (yay, watching what we - or at least I - eat!) and then we drove home.

We listened to 90s rock music all the way there and back, and all together it made for a fantastic day! So go! Look at the pictures!

He’s a great husband, but I don’t need to tell anyone that. Aside from this, however, he’s a fantastic driver. I noticed this right away when I first met him. I was impressed with his driving skills, which sounds weird, but it’s not as weird as it seems.

Anyway, his knack for driving isn’t limited to real cars. He drives virtual cars just as well! I like watching him play racing games and driving games, sitting at his computer with a racing wheel and pedals. Okay, so maybe I’m a nerd. Maybe he’s a nerd too, who knows.

He uploaded a few videos of one of his games to YouTube yesterday. I’m glad he finally did it, because I can share them! Go watch them! Now!

Who does that? That far over the line? There aren’t many spaces in that area, either, that aren’t handicapped, so that one space that nobody can get in now is actually a pretty big deal.

Anyway, I’m hoping to have a nifty update with some Sex and the City fashion opinions, once I sit down and take some screenshots.