I am so sore today that even my feet are begging me to lay off. However, that means I did good on my workout yesterday! I took the trainer’s advice and pushed myself. I keep feeling guilt, though. I did more than I’ve been doing, so I should be proud, but I feel like I should still have done more. I don’t know what it is about myself that I can’t just be proud of the little things. But, it’s me, I guess. I could lose all the weight in two days and still not be happy that it wasn’t only one! (Yes, I know that’s far-fetched. Deal with it!) Yesterday’s workout consisted of:

• Warmup: 5 minutes, bike, level 1.
• Lower back: 12 reps, 130 lbs.
• Leg extension: 12 reps, 90 lbs.
• Leg curl: 12 reps, 90 lbs.
• Seated row: 12 reps, 50 lbs.
• Chest press: 12 reps, 50 lbs.
• Shoulder lateral raise: 12 reps, 20 lbs.
• Bicep: 4 reps, 35 lbs.
• Tricep: 6 reps, 35 lbs.
• Abdominal: 12 reps, 45 lbs.
• Treadmill: 2.5 minutes, level 3.
• Lower back: 12 reps, 130 lbs.
• Leg extension: 12 reps, 90 lbs.
• Leg curl: 6 reps, 90 lbs.
• Chest press: 8 reps, 50 lbs.
• Elliptical: 2 minutes, level 1.
• Bike: 3 minutes, level 3.

It’s a lot, even listed out, so that makes me feel much better, to be honest. I wish I’d been able to make it through two full circuits but if I could, then what would need to be improved? I’m going to go in tonight and do a 30 minute cardio circuit, trying to mix in all the machines. It should be fun!

As for my food, I’ve been doing good so far, I think. I’ve traded in my chips (oh, lovely chips) for brown rice crisps. They are actually a good alternative, so I’m satisfied. Last night’s meal was awesome. Even Matt enjoyed it! I made Havarti- and asparagus-stuffed chicken thighs, roasted red potatoes and asparagus, and served it with a large side salad. So yummy! I’m trying to experiment with healthier foods and get myself on a regular eating schedule so I stop forgetting to eat, then binging when I get really really hungry. Matt and I were talking last night and if I stick with the gym, I might be signing up at some point to take a healthy living class at Superstore (which is where the gym is). We’re waiting, though, because it’s $120, and I don’t want to spend that when I’m already paying for the gym and have slacked off a few times on that. No sense wasting money! It’d be a good thing for me, though, because it’s got menus and recipes, as well as a support system. Almost like a mini Weight Watchers!

Today was an emotional day. I’m okay, there’s nothing wrong, but I just felt emotional. I was angry, then depressed, then happy. I wish I knew why, but I figured it would pass, and it’s seeming to. I think I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

Because I wasn’t feeling too hot, we ordered pizza. Yum! I’m a fan of Domino’s, even though I know pizza isn’t the healthiest. I’m still determined to start fresh tomorrow. The forecast says there isn’t supposed be snow, so I’ll be able to go to the gym. I’m thinking I’ll go in the early evening and go to a body jam class.

I’m playing the Sims again. I’m loving the new expansion pack! I’ve got my second Legacy generation to the point of being toddlers. I hope I can get further this time than the other times. The new expansion makes it more fun to play, though!

I’m feeling super lonely right now because my AIM won’t connect, so I can’t talk to anyone.

I went to dinner with Matt last night. It was delicious, as it always is when we go there. I even got something different today, which is saying a lot! Chicken parmesan, yum!

After who knows how many months of feeling irritated because I was both not losing weight and actually regained some, I dropped three pounds this morning. Just like that. Out of nowhere. I will not question it or over analyze it, though, because I prefer to be blissfully unaware of the fact that it might very well come back.

I didn’t go to the gym today because of weird timing and going out to dinner, but I did a 30 minute core workout in Yourself! Fitness. I’m so proud of myself. Though I can honestly say that I HATE doing planks. More than any one person should hate anything. I burned a lot of calories and worked some muscles, so I’m happy.

I think I’m going to go tend to my sore muscles and maybe soak in a nice warm bath with candles and fluffy towels and an audiobook on my awesome iPod. Sounds nice, doesn’t it?

Today was another fantastic one of Matt’s days off. We spent the day on the computers, but we’re starting to talk more when we’re near each other instead of going into our own little worlds. We made some awesome tacos for dinner! So sinful, but oh so good. I’m feeling slightly less icky than I was yesterday (though still not at 100%) so that’s a good thing.

I’m working on a new Wordpress theme (yes, a new one, even though I just put this one up) and am hoping to get it done fairly soon. I don’t want to rush it, though. That’s how they end up being unsatisfying! So you’ll see it when you see it, and it’ll be the best I can do!

I found a game today that I used to play all the time when I was younger. The Adventures of Willy Beamish. It’s kinda sad that when I played it, I had a hard time with the exact same part that I had a hard time with when I was eight, but that’s okay. I might play more tomorrow.

There is one game that I’ve been dying to play lately and can’t find anywhere. It’s called Murder in the Museum. It’s a text-based game, and it’s… well, it’s what it sounds like. You go from room to room looking for clues (all in text, haha) and try to solve a murder mystery… in a museum! So if anyone happens to come across this, I will be so grateful.

Anyway, I think it’s about time for bed. Matt has to work in, oh, six hours, and he needs his beauty sleep.

I’m crocheting myself a new scarf. Why, you ask? Because I got a new coat today! It’s a nice long black coat that looks a lot like this one. It’s exactly the coat I wanted, and for only $8 it was totally worth it! I also got myself a new purse, which I really needed. It fits my wallet and my little makeup bag with plenty of room to spare. It’s fantastic!

I made stuffed manicotti for dinner today. Not easy to stuff, but it was yummy anyway! It was nice to have a home-cooked meal.

I’m totally slacking on weight loss right now. It’s all the drinking I did this weekend - I’m totally bloated. But I’ll be back on track as soon as I shake this cold! Not to mention I’ve exercised more than normal the past two days - lots of walking and lifting. Definitely a good thing, right?