I’m looking forward to getting a package that my grandma is sending me, because it has weight watchers pamphlets and resources in it. I can’t afford to go right now but the plan should be all I need. Since quitting the gym I’ve lost 6 pounds, which is big for me, so I’ll just keep on at it.

I realized today that if I stick with it, I could very well be at my ultimate goal weight by the time I see my family next. Strange concept, isn’t it? I could be back to “myself” - the person I’ve been the past few years doesn’t feel like me. I can’t wait.

Grumpy. That’s how I’m feeling today.

• The server isn’t working, so it’s not playing videos to anything, so I have nothing to watch right now.
• I’m up a pound from yesterday, which was down a pound from the day before. Up, down, up, down.
• My whole body is aching right now. I can only assume it’s from jogging and doing laundry yesterday, but even walking hurts.
• I couldn’t find anything for lunch, so I had a piece of bread and am going to have a banana. Seriously.
• Matt’s dad keeps taking the cat outside. I don’t want her out there. I haven’t wanted her out there since I got her. He knows this. He refuses to follow that, though, and takes her out there anyway.

I need a hug.

My power went out tonight. Repeatedly. All night. So, this post is later than I’d hoped, but oh well. It still counts. Gotta keep posting, keep posting, keep posting, right?

Today was the first snow of the season. Technically, it was more like the first snow/rain/slush of the season. I’ll be worried about Matt tomorrow with the roads being as potentially nasty as they are, but I know he’ll be fine. He’s good at handling himself on the road and I doubt they’ll be as bad as I’m expecting. I’m a worrywart.

Here’s a question for everyone. What do you think about running? I’m considering starting, but I’m a bit apprehensive. How did you start running? Was it hard to get motivated? Did you feel that it was rewarding right away? I feel like it’s something too big for me to take on, but I want to anyway. Hmm…

When you’re determined to do something, what motivates you?

Last night, I was doing a speed Karazhan/ZA run with some people in my guild, and in between instances, when we were travelling, one of the guys said “Be back in 20 minutes or so, going for a quick jog.” That sent my mind running. Going for a jog? Randomly? Just whenever you feel like it? This is such a foreign concept to me! I haven’t ever done something like that, as far as I can remember, but it made me want to.

Today, I’ve been catching up on this season of the Biggest Loser. Watching them lose weight makes me motivated too, but not so much that I get unrealistic expectations of what I can do. I haven’t lost weight in ages. It’s like it just WILL NOT happen. However, I’ll get there. In the meantime, I can just keep pushing forward and being happy with who I am.

So here’s my question to you: What motivates you to do the things you want to do, or the things that you need to do?

I’m exhausted yet again today. I don’t know why, but I do know it’s driving me insane to feel this constant desire to sleep, yet not be able to. Plus, I’ve got a major migraine right now but Matt’s watching some documentary about money, so I don’t know if I’m quite ready to go to bed.

Yes, that’s me. I’m going to bed at 9:30 on a Friday night. I’m 23 years old. Have a problem with it? I hope not. I don’t. I’m supposed to be going to a dinner-party type thing tomorrow night and I’m just hoping I’m even feeling up to that. I’m so against being social lately and I’m basically just too tired to deal with other people.

Thank you all for the compliments on my hair. I am enjoying the cut even more today than yesterday! It makes me happy to know that something so daring worked out so well.