Words Unspoken|Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten.

I’m honestly quite tired of lazy days, but I don’t get much else these days. I’ll be filling out my immigration paperwork within the next couple weeks and mailing that out, which is terrifying! I’ll be going in for volunteer training on Monday which is less scary. Other than that, I have absolutely nothing to do with my time!

Today I changed a few of my 101 things list. I was able to move rearrange the bedroom from the “to do” list to the “done” list, which is cool. I need to do a few of those other things on my own though. Maybe sometime in the next few weeks I’ll get them done! Another thing I changed is that I added something. I’ve wanted to do this for quite a while, so regardless of how silly it is, I added that I want to own either this ring or this ring. I’ve come so close to buying the mesh heart ring so many times that I couldn’t begin to count them, but always backed down. But I decided that I deserve something nice, and once I’m able to own that ring, then I will deserve it. Notice I didn’t say that I have to BUY it. Matt could buy it for me, or a family member, but I’ll most likely be buying it myself, which will probably make me feel proud!

Other than that… I’m attempting to eat healthier these days because I’m frustrated again with my weight. However, when am I not? I need to get back into the gym. I’ve been wanting to go with Katie, but she has been sick since we went last week, poor thing, so I think I just need to get myself in there and do it myself. I can’t rely on anyone but myself! I just feel so worthless these days. The depression is hitting me pretty hard lately and not much makes it better. I think it’s cabin fever. I spent Canada Day doing laundry, and I never go out, and I don’t have a tan. But that’s news for another time.

Happy Canada Day! Anyone have any plans?

Teresa is holding a new contest over at her personal blog. Those entering have a chance at winning a lovely and uniquely designed dandelion handbag by Rebecca Weis. Teresa is willing to ship this item anywhere, so anyone can participate.

This handbag is absolutely beautiful! I want it! It’d be a fantastic birthday present for me if I won it, haha!

Look at this weather. WHY is it snowing again? I just got rid of the crap. My birthday is in 9 days. If it’s snowing on my birthday, I will cry. For real. Not fair!

Can you believe it? This is my 650th post here at Words Unspoken. This blog has seen a lot of ups and downs, just like I have.

Lately I’ve not been in a blogging mood. I’m just in a… weird mood, I guess. That’s the only way to even remotely explain it. I’m dealing with my issues as they come, and trying to push myself past them. I got my extension, for those of you wondering, so I’m legal for a bit longer. Now I have to push my paperwork through and send it away in the next three months, which will be daunting and to be honest, I’m terrified, but it’s got to be done! One step at a time, I guess.

I’ve been doing a lot of fill-in puzzles lately. I bought a book a few days ago (a week ago, I guess?) and now I’m on page 47. I did one on the exercise bike yesterday at the gym, but that didn’t go over too well. Whoops!

Speaking of the gym, I walked there again today, even though I just went yesterday. Boy, were my legs mad at me for walking there! Halfway there I got to the point where I wanted to just sit down and send mental messages to Matt to come pick me up because my legs were burning so bad I didn’t think I’d make it. But I did! Turns out I got there early for the “party” thing they had going on today, so I had to do something. So, I hopped on a bike, biked a mile, then did a Body Flow class.

When I got to the class, one of the ladies that I always see in there approached me. We had our usual “Hi, how are you” greeting, and then she said something that really shocked me. “Boy, you’re really losing a lot of weight, aren’t you?” I was amazed. I haven’t lost a pound, and I told her so. She replied “Well, then you must be toning up, because you look smaller than when you first came in!” I told her that she had just made my month, and really, she did. That was the best thing for me to hear today when I’ve been feeling so helpless about my weight. As Stacy said, all my hard work is finally paying off in a real way. Thank goodness!

Speaking of Stacy, my bestest friend in the whole world (haha, did I give you a flashback to 5th grade there?), her birthday was today yesterday. Darn me not going bed until the next day. Anyway, I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again, I hope it was fantastic! I know you didn’t get to do what you had hoped to do, since your guild is doing its… well, its thing, but I hope it was good anyway! ♥

Anyway, I have photos uploading on Flickr and have to pick out what we’re watching when we go to bed tonight. I’m thinking it’ll be The Other Sister followed by Season 1 of Scrubs, and then maybe House afterward, just so it doesn’t go blank in the middle of the night.

Goodnight everyone!