Thanksgiving ThoughtsPosted on November 27th, 2008 @ 2:38 pm
Happy Thanksgiving, all of you Americans out there! Today’s a day for family, friends, and food! While I celebrated Canadian Thanksgiving last month, I still feel attached to this holiday in a major way.
I called my grandma last night. If I was still in Michigan I’d be heading over to her house tonight for a big family turkey dinner, so I wanted her to know I was there in spirit. She’s supposed to give everyone a big hug and tell them it’s from me.
After I called her I called my mom for a bit. I figured I could tell her happy Thanksgiving, too, and I had a few things I wanted to talk to her about. Sadly, by the end of these two conversations I was in tears. For the first time in three years, I was truly homesick. It was crippling. I literally sat for a half hour and stared at the wall, crying.
Most days it’s fairly easy. I can pretend they’re in the next room, because we’re in contact. But when it dawns on me that I don’t have the OPTION to just drive over for a nice dinner, or to go for a walk… That’s when it hits me the hardest that I’m 1400 miles away from everything I’ve ever known.
I really hope this gets easier. In the meantime, I’ll build myself up for a visit, hopefully next year when this nightmare is over.
Depression · Family · Immigration · Mental Health · NaBloPoMo 2008 · Permanent Residency · Special Days · Thanksgiving
