Words Unspoken|Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten.

My legs are killing me today. I’m going grocery shopping with Matt after he gets off work and I’m already dreading the walking. But on a happy note, I know I did something good every time I think of that number from yesterday. That’s a huge number! Not to mention most of those steps were uphill.

What the heck? Something just fell over in the closet and hit the door. That was strange. We really need to get some sort of a shelving system or something for in there but the fact is that the closet is so incredibly inconvenient that I don’t think any amount of shelving could fix it!

I need to go do dishes but I’m a bit afraid of trying to stand up as long as it’ll take to do them. Ick. My hips are barely holding me upright since yesterday and lifting my leg up (putting any pressure/weight) on the hip bone hurts like crazy. Weird that just walking did that, isn’t it?

On a whim the other day, Matt and I decided to make a trek over to Chapters and pick up some books. He got some geeky ones, I got some girly ones.

I’m in the middle of Remember Me right now and I’m loving it! It reminds me of Samantha Who? in a way. Fantastic show, by the way. I’m a fan of shows that are either narrated (like Sex and the City) or have mini-titles (like this one!). Anyway, back to the book. I’ve got all of the Shopaholic books and the Undomestic Goddess so I had to have this one when it came out. I waited a bit and got it for quite a discount! On top of that, each of the other four books (all Red Dress Ink, by the way, my favourite kind!) was $4.99 with a 10% discount! Go go bargain shopper! It made up for Matt’s fancy programming books (which I may use someday myself!) that I don’t happen to have a photo of right now.

Right now my head is killing me, but I had to blog. Why, you ask? This is why:

“When you’re young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don’t leap at all because there’s not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there’s no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?” (Sex and the City)

Do you ever stop before making a huge decision in your life and wonder “What if?” Has that ever stopped you from doing something?

I’ve made a lot of huge decisions in my life so far. When the time comes to make it, you have to weigh your options. Does the reward outweigh the risk you’re making? The biggest decision I made was the decision to move out here. Matt and I have our ups and downs like any couple, but I would never in a million years give it up. I wouldn’t move back. I wouldn’t start over. Given the chance, I wouldn’t change a thing. My husband is there for me when I need him, and is everything to me.

He’s the person I come home to on the rare occasion that I go out, and I’m the person who greets him when he comes in from work. He’s the one who surprises me with a taco salad, or makes my plate at suppertime, or smells the air and makes “yummy noises” when I cook. He’s the one who hugs me when I cry and the one who tells me everything will be alright when I get nervous.

I think back and I can’t imagine not doing this. If I hadn’t done what I did, I wouldn’t be here now. I wouldn’t be in this relationship with a man who loves me with his whole heart. I wouldn’t be finding out who I am, or working on my confidence. I don’t know what would have happened, but I do know I wouldn’t be here.

So every day, I think about my choices. I don’t wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t made them, but instead I remind myself that I made the best one for me. I am truly happy with my life this far, and how many people do you know that can say the same?

I’m so hungry. I don’t even know why, as I’ve eaten two meals today and probably more than my share of snacks. I could go boil some noodles to go with my spaghetti sauce, but I’m not feeling wonderful and don’t want to be on my feet for even that long. Maybe a bit later tonight.

First of all, did you know today was the invention of the first laser? Pretty nifty, if you ask me! Everyone get out your laser pointers and tease a cat. That’s an order!

Anyway… Yesterday was fairly eventful, but not up until around 5 pm! I emailed back and forth with my mom at work all morning, which was nice. I enjoy talking to her. After that, I played Scattergories with Matt’s mom’s friends. We played two games, both of which my team won. Then we ate a delicious corned beef and cabbage dinner. I say delicious, but if there was a better word, I’d use that! I love corned beef and cabbage. I have no idea why. It’s sweet, flavourful, simple… wonderful! After dinner, we had some fruit for dessert. Yum! I love bananas and strawberries. Pineapple, not so much. Then we played a game of Scene It, and I won. I’m seeing a trend - I think I’m good at board games. I told my mom last night that I’d need to make a board game robot to play all the time with me simply because I can’t play alone. But I couldn’t make it too smart or I’d probably start hating board games!

The quote in the title is fitting for me. Do you ever get the feeling that you wasted the whole summer? I have, the past few years. This year will be different for me, though! I’ll go places, do things… I’ll do what I want, even if it means facing some fears to get there. Why waste the summer when most people would kill for the opportunity to do what they want, when they want?

In WoW news, my guild is moving along quite nicely. We’d gotten Kaz’rogal down last week, and Azgalor to 5%. This week was BT week. Tuesday we had our first kill on Naj’entus (Yay for trying new strategies!) and then last night we downed Supremus (1-shot!) and Shade of Akama. Took two tries on Shade because we were a bit… strange. We were still discussing strategy while we ran around killing things and ended up with half of the group not paying attention and dying in the fire. Whoops. Rule #1 of WoW: Don’t stand in the fire! Anyway, we went on to fight Teron Gorefiend, and probably would have killed him on our first try, except someone misheard something and didn’t realize they had the debuff, and ended up dying right IN the raid, so there were constructs everywhere. We were going to attempt again, except someone pulled, twice, while we were rezzing, and then someone managed to live long enough to get the debuff again, and then they died, so their constructs were running all around the Black Temple. Half the raid was rezzed, alive, safe, inside Teron’s room, and the other half was at the entrance from zoning in, so we just gave up for the night since it was late anyway. We had him to 50%, though, so I’m sure we would have gotten him!

* Quote by Henry Clay