Sadly, I’ve become very annoyed with 90% of the blogs I come across. Poorly written, run-on sentences, lolcat-speak everywhere… Then there’s the worst offender of all: people who sneak in paid links in every one of their blogs, regardless of what the subject is or whether it relates. It’s like a game, where they have to post about one random thing that details their life, and sneak in a link to something that doesn’t have any effect on them whatsoever but might put a buck or two in their bank account.

I understand that people need money. I do. But it feels like exploitation when it happens to the degree that it is on most of the blogs I see. I lose interest in the people who write them, and I stop caring about their problems. The way I see it, if blogging about some horrible problem in your life is so trivial to you that you can’t dedicate an entire entry to it and not sneak in some advertising link that nobody will click on anyway, then why should I worry about that problem or feel sympathy?

That said, I really am looking for good, witty, well-written blogs. I want some entertainment, and to read about other people’s days, lives, problems, exciting news… Anything that isn’t spam-linked and/or doesn’t look like it was written by a five-year-old is good for me!

Oh my goodness. I have been going crazy without my Greasemonkey scripts in Firefox for the past month or so since I’ve upgraded. Just now, I decided to check for a new version, and it exists! You have no idea how relieved this makes me!

Can you believe it? This is my 650th post here at Words Unspoken. This blog has seen a lot of ups and downs, just like I have.

Lately I’ve not been in a blogging mood. I’m just in a… weird mood, I guess. That’s the only way to even remotely explain it. I’m dealing with my issues as they come, and trying to push myself past them. I got my extension, for those of you wondering, so I’m legal for a bit longer. Now I have to push my paperwork through and send it away in the next three months, which will be daunting and to be honest, I’m terrified, but it’s got to be done! One step at a time, I guess.

I’ve been doing a lot of fill-in puzzles lately. I bought a book a few days ago (a week ago, I guess?) and now I’m on page 47. I did one on the exercise bike yesterday at the gym, but that didn’t go over too well. Whoops!

Speaking of the gym, I walked there again today, even though I just went yesterday. Boy, were my legs mad at me for walking there! Halfway there I got to the point where I wanted to just sit down and send mental messages to Matt to come pick me up because my legs were burning so bad I didn’t think I’d make it. But I did! Turns out I got there early for the “party” thing they had going on today, so I had to do something. So, I hopped on a bike, biked a mile, then did a Body Flow class.

When I got to the class, one of the ladies that I always see in there approached me. We had our usual “Hi, how are you” greeting, and then she said something that really shocked me. “Boy, you’re really losing a lot of weight, aren’t you?” I was amazed. I haven’t lost a pound, and I told her so. She replied “Well, then you must be toning up, because you look smaller than when you first came in!” I told her that she had just made my month, and really, she did. That was the best thing for me to hear today when I’ve been feeling so helpless about my weight. As Stacy said, all my hard work is finally paying off in a real way. Thank goodness!

Speaking of Stacy, my bestest friend in the whole world (haha, did I give you a flashback to 5th grade there?), her birthday was today yesterday. Darn me not going bed until the next day. Anyway, I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again, I hope it was fantastic! I know you didn’t get to do what you had hoped to do, since your guild is doing its… well, its thing, but I hope it was good anyway! ♥

Anyway, I have photos uploading on Flickr and have to pick out what we’re watching when we go to bed tonight. I’m thinking it’ll be The Other Sister followed by Season 1 of Scrubs, and then maybe House afterward, just so it doesn’t go blank in the middle of the night.

Goodnight everyone!

Today is just boring. I keep playing games but they keep crashing. I was in Second Life but it kept crashing to the desktop and giving me runtime errors. Lovely, huh? Eve did that a few times, too. But I’m playing it right now, doing some missions. I want to pack things and get rid of stuff in the storage room, but there’s so much that I hardly know where to begin. I might get a box out after this mission, though. A little bit at a time, and I might actually be able to get rid of some of the crap that is haunting this way-too-cluttered house. When we move (in June) I don’t want to be living in a tiny apartment with a million years’ worth of doubles of crap that wasn’t necessary in the first place, you know? I’m a no-clutter person.

In Second Life, I made a group for Lavish members. It’s so cool to see a bunch of us coming together in there! I still remember meeting Matt in there and how great it felt to have someone that I connected with that well.

The time is going by. Not quite as quick as I’d like, of course, but if it was going as quick as I’d like, he’d be home by now.

I realized today just how lucky and grateful I am for my life. I have awesome friends. They may not be close enough to spend time with, but they’re there for me when I need them, and I do the same for them. That’s what counts, right?

And Matt. He’s something else. He truly loves me. And while we may have been a little rocky lately, I can’t help but think about how amazing he is all the time. We were watching American Idol earlier together. I called him, since his internet wasn’t working well, and we watched the show and joked around and talked. We really are still as alike as we were. And I’m so happy for him. He’s socializing now. He’s opening up. It’s so fantastic that he’s making friends and doing things with them, even if “things” just entails going to Wal-Mart or playing pool or air hockey. I’m so proud of him. I think that him socializing so much there will open him up to being more social here, which is something that we both need. And something our marriage needs. We can’t just exist in our own little world, you know? We need to be open and share things and see people.

I love so much about him. I heard his voice again today and it puts me in a puddle on the floor. I see pictures of him and they make me weak. His eyes, his smile, his laugh. If I didn’t get to see and these things, I’d go insane! He is by far the smartest, funniest, sexiest, most handsome and amazing man I’ve ever met. I know that I’ve been focusing on him a lot, and not just lately. But he’s my world! I have quite a few friends that are mothers, and they focus on their children, because they are their world. Which makes sense to me! I don’t have children, obviously. But my husband means more to me than anything. If it weren’t for him, I’d be miserable, if alive at all. Honestly, he’s the greatest thing in my life and my biggest inspiration. I am so lucky.