First of all, did you know today was the invention of the first laser? Pretty nifty, if you ask me! Everyone get out your laser pointers and tease a cat. That’s an order!

Anyway… Yesterday was fairly eventful, but not up until around 5 pm! I emailed back and forth with my mom at work all morning, which was nice. I enjoy talking to her. After that, I played Scattergories with Matt’s mom’s friends. We played two games, both of which my team won. Then we ate a delicious corned beef and cabbage dinner. I say delicious, but if there was a better word, I’d use that! I love corned beef and cabbage. I have no idea why. It’s sweet, flavourful, simple… wonderful! After dinner, we had some fruit for dessert. Yum! I love bananas and strawberries. Pineapple, not so much. Then we played a game of Scene It, and I won. I’m seeing a trend - I think I’m good at board games. I told my mom last night that I’d need to make a board game robot to play all the time with me simply because I can’t play alone. But I couldn’t make it too smart or I’d probably start hating board games!

The quote in the title is fitting for me. Do you ever get the feeling that you wasted the whole summer? I have, the past few years. This year will be different for me, though! I’ll go places, do things… I’ll do what I want, even if it means facing some fears to get there. Why waste the summer when most people would kill for the opportunity to do what they want, when they want?

In WoW news, my guild is moving along quite nicely. We’d gotten Kaz’rogal down last week, and Azgalor to 5%. This week was BT week. Tuesday we had our first kill on Naj’entus (Yay for trying new strategies!) and then last night we downed Supremus (1-shot!) and Shade of Akama. Took two tries on Shade because we were a bit… strange. We were still discussing strategy while we ran around killing things and ended up with half of the group not paying attention and dying in the fire. Whoops. Rule #1 of WoW: Don’t stand in the fire! Anyway, we went on to fight Teron Gorefiend, and probably would have killed him on our first try, except someone misheard something and didn’t realize they had the debuff, and ended up dying right IN the raid, so there were constructs everywhere. We were going to attempt again, except someone pulled, twice, while we were rezzing, and then someone managed to live long enough to get the debuff again, and then they died, so their constructs were running all around the Black Temple. Half the raid was rezzed, alive, safe, inside Teron’s room, and the other half was at the entrance from zoning in, so we just gave up for the night since it was late anyway. We had him to 50%, though, so I’m sure we would have gotten him!

* Quote by Henry Clay

I took a mini road trip with Amy today. It was so much fun! We went to the beach, and took lots of pictures.

After we went to the beach and stayed there for a few hours, we went to a gas station to get some banana bread from the Bluecanoe store (Why is it all one word? That bothers me!) - it’s the most fantastic banana bread other than homemade, and it even rivals that. We snuck it into a Starbucks, where we had nonfat Chai Tea Lattes (yay, watching what we - or at least I - eat!) and then we drove home.

We listened to 90s rock music all the way there and back, and all together it made for a fantastic day! So go! Look at the pictures!

I finally decided this year to make the most of the summer, and so far it’s turning out pretty good. Went swimming for a few minutes again today. Played World of Warcraft (I know, you’re shocked, right?). Put away some laundry. Mostly just hung out.

Next week Janelle is off work, I guess, so we’re going to go to a real beach! I’m so excited. I don’t know what else we’re going to do, but she said she’s going to “suck the social right out of me” so I’m guessing I might actually meet some people!

I check the weather every day now, since I decided to go swimming/to the beach as often as possible.

Why, now that I want to go out and enjoy the sun, does it suddenly keep looking like this?

I’ve decided that going out is important, even if it is by myself. So, I went to the lake today and laid out on the beach! It was a bit weird, alone, but it felt nice anyway. So nice, in fact, that I intend to go back many times! I still have a month of hot days left, right? If not more! So yeah. The more I get out, the better I’ll feel. I hope.

Speaking of going alone… I suppose I should preface this with something. I love my online and offline friends. I love you all, very much. You’re all fantastic people, and I’d be crazy if it weren’t for you!

That said… I’m going through a bit of a rough patch in my life. It’s like a pre-mid-life crisis or something. I’m at an awkward age. Everyone speaks of awkward ages like it’s the years you go through puberty, but this one feels much more awkward to me than I did then. Everyone who knows me well knows that my baby fever is insatiable. But I can’t get away from all things baby! All my friends have children, and people online have children, and I swear if I didn’t know better, I’d think there is not one woman my age that is baby-less at the moment.

Now this isn’t meant to offend anyone, but I need to get it off my chest. I just have a hard time dealing with trying to find excitement and happiness while being childless when in my face constantly there’s the reminders of what a joy it is to be a mother. I’m so happy that all my friends have this joy, and I support them fully. I just think I need to figure out how to meet people more like me, who already know how to enjoy their time without constantly thinking BABY BABY BABY.

This isn’t being said because I intend to cut anyone out of my life. It’s not being said to hurt anyone’s feelings, or object to anyone’s life decisions. I just wanted to give an explanation as to why I have been (and possibly will continue to be) so distant lately. It’s nothing personal.