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I don’t know what I would do without him. At this point, I can’t believe how much better my life has been for having met him. He is my everything; the one person I can’t live without. I miss him like crazy every day, and can’t wait until we’re together again. He’s so far away, and that makes me feel sometimes like there isn’t any hope. But I know that there is. You don’t fall so far, so fast, and then forget about it. You just don’t.

I’ve never had anybody stand up for me and understand me the way that he does. And after a bad day, he’ll be the first one to comfort me. When I was there, every time I cried, he’d wrap me up in those arms and make me feel like the whole world existed just so I could be in those arms. He has the greatest hug of any person I’ve ever met, and he’s so good at comforting me that I almost forget he’s real. It’s hard to believe that he’s never done this before. He’s so perfect, and the most amazing fiance in the world.

He’s my best friend; we can talk for hours at a time about nothing and still maintain a conversation. He gossips with me when I feel the need to gossip, but he reminds me that I’m better than the people I gossip about and that I deserve better than the lives they’re living. He does the sweetest little things: reading to me in french when I want to hear it, even though he hates speaking the language; dancing with me at 1:00 in the morning because I feel like dancing; watching movies with me that he’s seen a thousand times (and always acting like it’s the first time).

He makes me feel whole. I swear, my whole life, I never thought anyone really thought twice about me or really cared. I’ve been let down and disappointed, hurt and abused, and yet he still sees me as a good person. He tells me how much I mean to him, even without me asking, and sometimes a girl just needs reassurance that they even have a reason to live.

That’s why I’m doing all of this. That’s why I’m living, why I’m enduring the pain of being so far apart for an unknown period of time. I do this because I truly love him.