I’ve felt very weird the past few days. Like… Yesterday I was craving air, the way you’d crave a bag of chips or a carton if ice cream. I wanted fresh air and to go outside and lay in the grass. I hate going outside, I hate the cold, but I wanted fresh, cold, crisp air.

Today and yesterday, I’ve felt very… hm. Socially hungry, I guess. I’ve been posting like crazy on message boards that I’m a part of, and even called a friend on the phone yesterday. I’m THAT desperate for social interaction. It’s literally like - nobody’s online, nobody’s emailing me and I hate that people have lives. O.o I don’t get it. I’m not sure if it’s a good sign, like I’m coming out of my shell, or if it’s a bad sign and that this will just plunge me further into my dark place.