The time is going by. Not quite as quick as I’d like, of course, but if it was going as quick as I’d like, he’d be home by now.

I realized today just how lucky and grateful I am for my life. I have awesome friends. They may not be close enough to spend time with, but they’re there for me when I need them, and I do the same for them. That’s what counts, right?

And Matt. He’s something else. He truly loves me. And while we may have been a little rocky lately, I can’t help but think about how amazing he is all the time. We were watching American Idol earlier together. I called him, since his internet wasn’t working well, and we watched the show and joked around and talked. We really are still as alike as we were. And I’m so happy for him. He’s socializing now. He’s opening up. It’s so fantastic that he’s making friends and doing things with them, even if “things” just entails going to Wal-Mart or playing pool or air hockey. I’m so proud of him. I think that him socializing so much there will open him up to being more social here, which is something that we both need. And something our marriage needs. We can’t just exist in our own little world, you know? We need to be open and share things and see people.

I love so much about him. I heard his voice again today and it puts me in a puddle on the floor. I see pictures of him and they make me weak. His eyes, his smile, his laugh. If I didn’t get to see and these things, I’d go insane! He is by far the smartest, funniest, sexiest, most handsome and amazing man I’ve ever met. I know that I’ve been focusing on him a lot, and not just lately. But he’s my world! I have quite a few friends that are mothers, and they focus on their children, because they are their world. Which makes sense to me! I don’t have children, obviously. But my husband means more to me than anything. If it weren’t for him, I’d be miserable, if alive at all. Honestly, he’s the greatest thing in my life and my biggest inspiration. I am so lucky.

Today was, overall, a good day. After last night, I was determined to stay in bed all day. But when I woke up and realized that I was feeling that way, I forced myself out of bed and into the shower. i went to Wal-mart, got some stuff for dinner and some diet pills, tried on some clothes (which led to the purchase of the aforementioned diet pills) and then came home. When Matt got “home” after his classes, he called me. It was so nice to hear his voice. I’d almost forgotten how sexy his phone voice is! *drool* Anyway, after that, we both got our dinners (I made mine, he picked his up) and talked. For hours. We’re better than we were yesterday, I’m better than I was yesterday, and it feels like we’re going to be just fine. I still can’t wait until he gets home. It is now the 10th (in the morning), so that means 18 more days until I get to see him, hold him, hug him, kiss him. I can’t wait.