Today’s Ten on Tuesday is hard! I don’t just have ten things that I want to do before I die! Heck, I’ve got 101 things to do in the next 933 days alone! But, I can narrow this down pretty well.

01. Have a child.
    Anyone who knows me well knows that I’ve had the worst case of baby fever for the past few years. I’m being as patient as I can, though!

02. Visit Spain again.
    I know my husband knows very little Spanish, but I know enough for the both of us! I went to Spain when I was a junior in high school, and I would absolutely love to go back and see the sights without the schedule of the group and tour guide.

03. Finally be content with myself.
    I’d love to be able to walk into a room and radiate confidence. I’ve got a very annoying inner struggle going on lately between the part of me that likes who I am, and the part of me that feels that I need a lot of improvement.

04. Find a job that I’m passionate about.
    Forget the retail life, working just for a paycheck. I want to have a job that I love, and that I’m good at, and where I don’t wake up every morning dreading what I’ll be doing for the rest of the day.

05. Celebrate our fiftieth wedding anniversary.
    My grandparents celebrated theirs a few years back, and one of the first things that I thought at the party was how rare it was these days to celebrate such an amazingly strong marriage and bond. My parents made it just a few days shy of their 20th when their divorce was finalized, and ever since then I’ve known that I want a marriage that lasts.

06. Own a nice home.
    I want Matt and I to find our dream home and live in it. Even if it’s just big enough for us and our family, I want us to own a place and have a yard, and pets, and paint on the walls. I want a place to call our own, with nobody around but us.

07. Find a strong group of friends to spend time with.
    I have a lot of online friends, and a few that I spend time with on occasion, but there are moments when I wish I had a very tight-knit group of friends that I could always count on to understand me and spend time with each other. Those are the times that I feel loneliest, I guess.

08. Take a vacation to somewhere tropical.
    All my life I’ve lived in places that get cold. I want to go somewhere warm for a change, kick up my feet, drink some cocktails on the beach, and just spend some time with the man I love.

09. Attend an event that requires a formal dress.
    I don’t mean a wedding. I mean some sort of party, or ball where I have to dress formally. Every year, for New Year’s Eve, I wish I was attending (or throwing!) some fancy party like you see on TV.

10. Learn to stand up for myself.
    I get a lot of people criticizing me for the choices that I’ve made, or for where I am. These are mostly from my family - the people that should support me no matter what, as long as I’m happy. I want to learn to stand up for what I’m doing and how I’m living and not feel guilty for not sacrificing my own wants and needs for what everyone else wants.

My new theme rocks. It’s a totally different style than the last one, but I love it! What do you think? There’s still some work to be done behind the scenes, but for the most part, it’s set.

Yesterday, as I posted, was an awesome day. I was exhausted, so I didn’t really elaborate on much of anything, but I can now!

Katie and I went swimming, like I said. We went to a different lake than last time, and it was raining and cold out, but we were determined to have some fun and swim anyway. It was nice because there weren’t many people there.

Before we went to the lake, we went to Sobeys so I could pick up a couple things for dinner. I made tacos. I’ve been on a tacos/quesadillas/fajitas/enchiladas kick lately. Basically Mexican food, really. It was delicious, though. A big thing about the trip to Sobeys, though, is that I went out in public with a tank top and a skirt on. No jacket covering up half my body, no baggy pants to hide my stomach. Just a tank top and a skirt. I felt very happy with myself for doing this and not freaking out.

Also, I want to share a song that Matt introduced me to. It’s fantastic! It’s Tiësto with Christian Burns and it’s called In the Dark. Go watch that video. It’ll be stuck in your head for days!