Matt brought me home Taco Bell (My fave! Mmm!) and it turned out that after making my crunchwrap, they ran out of beef, so I got a chicken taco! Apparently chicken is better than beef, so I’m happy. And it was yummy, so I’m happy!

Amy and I went out again tonight. It was fantastic! We went out for coffee (I had a smoothie) and chatted. We’re going to do it more often. I’ll be uploading pictures later!

As of right now, it’s mine and Matt’s first anniversary. More on that later! <3

I didn’t sleep last night. It started out with me leveling Thaelani. Then, Matt had me watch a scary scene in a movie. Then, I ate some Doritos with refried beans, so I decided I’d have to wait to sleep for a while. Then I kept leveling Thae. I finally got super tired, so I decided to go to bed. As usual, I went to put on an on-demand movie, because I sleep better. I chose Little Miss Sunshine. Bad idea.

I got so intrigued by the movie that it is now quarter after eight in the morning, and I’m awake still! I may take a nap later, I may not. I suppose we’ll see.

Amy and I were going to go to the beach today, but the weather forecast looks pretty bleak. All day it says “overcast” and “rain” and that just will not do! I suppose we’ll see, though. We might do something.

I intend to bake a cake at some point today. Why, you ask? Because mine and Matt’s one year anniversary is tomorrow! The top of our wedding cake didn’t last the whole year due to a fairly disappointing wrapping job, so I’ll just make an easy cake for us, and we can eat that!

I’ve been reading more of You: On A Diet, and I really like it. One thing that has really caught my eye is the fact that they say that the amount of fat around your belly is a pretty good indicator of how much stress you have been dealing with. This explains a lot.

I was relatively tiny all my life, up until college. I started gaining weight as I went through an awful relationship with a guy that I’d rather just pretend doesn’t exist, was kicked out of my house, and then I went through a few different jobs and the emotional and mental stress with dealing with them, and the weight just kept coming. Then, I met another guy, went through some other life-changing events, got engaged, called off that engagement, met a man, fell madly in love with that man, moved out to Nova Scotia, then had to leave again after six months. Five months of living with my family, who I didn’t really get along with, then coming back out to Nova Scotia, getting married and then moving one more time. That’s a lot of stress for about five years. I have moved a total of seven times since I was 17. I’ve been engaged twice and married. I’ve dealt with bad jobs and good jobs, and family problems, and deaths in the family (four in the past year alone!). I planned a wedding 1400 miles away from my family, and none of them showed up, which was stressful. I haven’t made very many new friends, and I spend a lot of time alone in the apartment, because I’m shy and have low self-confidence. So, I’d say this weight around my belly is very justified. I’m not saying it’s good. I’m not saying it’s healthy. But each pound has a story of its own in a way, right?

That said, my life is settling down. I have an amazing husband and a wonderful marriage. A fantastic best friend who is there for me no matter what, even though she’s far away. An awesome pet who always knows just when I need her to cuddle with me. And so now, it’s time to get rid of the stress, let myself work through my mental issues, and get rid of this stress that’s built up, both emotionally/mentally and physically.

It’s time for a new me! But right now? This new me needs some breakfast and a cup of tea.