I’m so bored. Really. You know those moments when you don’t really feel like doing anything but you want something to do? Yeah, that’s what I’m going through right now. It doesn’t help that tonight’s Grey’s was a rerun. Ugh! Matt and I laid in bed to watch it and it was the first one of the season. I really hope I don’t have to wait too long to see the last part of the last episode. It had the best cliffhanger at the end!

I’m a bit sore. So far this week, I’ve went to the gym twice. Tomorrow will make my third day. Wednesday was a rough day for me. I got there and ran on the treadmill, then tried to go on the bike, and it just didn’t feel like it was working. I ended up talking to the fitness manager and crying. I felt like such a baby! She reassured me that it happens a lot and that it’s not an easy thing to do. Then she took me in the personal training room and weighed me and got my body fat percentage and gave me a goal to work for. She said to talk to her around Christmas and we’ll see how I’m progressing. She gave me a fitness plan to work for, too, which helps a lot. I was totally focusing on the wrong thing. It’s no wonder I haven’t seen progress in a couple months! I’m feeling refreshed and just in time, too, for the new month!

Christmas is coming soon. I’m not totally excited about it, just like I haven’t been the past few years, but I’m feeling a bit more excited this year than the past two, so that’s good. I’ve already bought some of Matt’s gifts and wrapped them. I’ve also bought Christmas cards and started addressing them. I’m trying to still force myself out of my “funk” and get happy and excited and be… well, be normal, I guess.

I was thinking today about what it’s like to be unique. I guess I’m unique - there’s nobody just like me in the world. Matt likes me for who I am, and I have a few friends that accept me the way I am, but I get the feeling a lot of people just write me off instead of giving me a chance. This makes me sad, but what’s a girl to do, right? I guess it’s hard for me to tell when I should just give up and when I should be persistent. I don’t want to seem like I don’t care, but I don’t want to come across as annoying, either. I’m so bad at this social thing, really.