Banana chips are fantastic. Sweet, like candy, but not as bad for you. I could eat these all the time!

I’m feeling more positive lately about my weight loss progress. I was just a bit down because I was at the inevitable plateau, but I think I’m past it now, so I’ll just keep up what I’m doing! I have to remember to record what I eat, because being lazy is bad. And not writing things down holds me less accountable, which gives me too much room to “mess up” and eat bad things.

I know, I know. Autumn has been here for ages. But it’s really here.

The other day, I was laying in bed with the window and the curtains open. I felt the cold breeze blow in, and I called Matt over to sit by me. I told him to smell the air outside the window. Usually, doing that would mean that we were going to get a whiff of cigarette smoke, or other smoke. Not this time, though. This time it was the smell of snow.

We didn’t get any snow, of course. But the air was cold and crisp and smelled like the first snow of winter. Instead of making me cry because I was sad, however, I wanted to cry because I felt happy. I don’t know what it was.

I’ve been doing that a lot lately. Feeling overwhelming joy and wanting to cry. I did that during my workout the other day. I don’t know exactly what it is, but it’s almost like I’m so happy that I’m overflowing. Isn’t that weird? It’s like I’m suddenly so happy that I’m making up for lost time. All the time I spent sad and unhappy and scared and depressed. I’m still all of those things, but a lot less often, and usually a lot less intense.

Today I bought a Glade Scented Oil Candle in Apple Cinnamon. I lit that along with one of my pumpkin spice candles, opened the window, and drank a glass of sweet apple cider. I forgot how much I really do love autumn, with all of the sadness and problems that the colder months have brought me in the past couple years.

Someone brought up Thanksgiving over on Midnight and I got a bit sad. I do miss going to my Grandma’s house every Thanksgiving and eating her huge home-cooked meal and seeing all of my family. I wish she could come out here and meet Matt, and see the city. She’d like it here, I think. It’s very much her kind of city.

See what Autumn does to me? It makes me feel all emotional.

You know what I want to do? Get a big pile of leaves and jump in it. Sigh. If only I was a kid again.

I really wanted to be lazy today and just stay home and play games. I really did. But instead, I’m going to the gym around 4:30 for a Newbody class. It sounds like a good class for me:

Newbody is an exclusive GoodLife Group EXercise program created by our very own Mo Hagan, 2006 IDEA Fitness Instructor of the Year. Newbody is a multi-level class that improves your energy, strength and endurance, making your day-to-day activities easier. Burn calories in this fun, low-impact and easy-to-follow class by combining cardio conditioning with optional hand weights. Learn how to properly use your abs and back muscles to improve your posture and reduce back pain.

Tonight, I have a raid at 9:00 my time. It was supposed to be Gruul and Magtheridon but we seem to be short on warlocks, so I think we’ll be doing Lurker instead. I think I forgot to post when we killed him last week, whoops! But we did. And I got a nice new shiny Cord of Screaming Terrors, which I love, love love. I was afraid that spending DKP on that would put me out of the running for the Eye of Magtheridon, but I’m still highest caster DPS, so I have to just make sure to keep raiding the 25-man raids until the next time we take him down!

In other World of Warcraft news, the highly anticipated 2.3 patch seems to be coming for us next Tuesday, which is great! I can finally start leveling Thae again, and maybe I won’t feel so burnt out with the addition of new daily quests (yay!), a new dungeon (double yay!) and heroic badges dropped in Karazhan (even more yay!).

In response to my being burnt out lately, I’ve been playing Everquest 2 a lot again. I can’t pull myself away from the computer most of the time, but at least now there’s some variety. I don’t think I’ll continue playing it forever, but I’ll enjoy it while I have it!

Anyway, I’m off to shower before the gym. I did a load of laundry last night, despite feeling icky, so I have some clean clothes to go work out in. I think I need even more pants and some new tank tops, though. We’ll see!

Also… I want to say a huge congratulations to my good friend (and soul mate!) Leesha, who has recently discovered that she’s pregnant after a long time of trying. I won’t say I’m not jealous, because I totally am, but she knows that there’s nobody that I think deserves such happiness more than she does. ♥

OH! As if this post wasn’t long enough already, I have a request. Please post your healthiest recipes and ideas for me - I’m seeming to fall out of the habit of eating healthy and it’s coming around to bite me, despite all the exercise I’m doing! So any help would be so much appreciated!

I went to my first class at the gym today! It felt great, but it was definitely a workout. I’ll be sore tomorrow! Today’s class was BodyFlow. From the site:

BODYFLOW is the yoga, tai chi, Pilates workout that builds flexibility and strength and leaves you feeling centred and calm. Controlled breathing, concentration and a carefully structured series of stretches, moves and poses to music create a holistic workout that brings the body into a state of harmony and balance.

It felt fantastic, to be honest. The only thing that I’m a tiny bit embarrassed to admit is that I had the overwhelming urge to cry when we did some breathing at the end. We were just laying there, stretching, and she told us what to relax. Then she said to breathe in and breathe our tension out, and I felt like crying. PLEASE tell me this happens to other people! It was definitely a good workout, though.

Of course, all the relaxing (Well, I guess not all. Some, though, definitely.) that I did during BodyFlow was pretty much gone when I got home to find out that Matt’s dad has opened yet another bag of treats for Mew Mew. I didn’t post about this before, but I need to vent this frustration before I freak out and snap on someone! In the past two weeks, Mew Mew has now been through two and a half bags of treats. Great, right? Not great. Let me start at the beginning.

I saw that Matt’s dad had bought a case of treats - like, they come in little packages and this was a box of packages. My first thought was “Wow, that’s a lot of treats!” but I figured he was just stocking up. Boy, was I wrong. The next day, the cat came into our bedroom and was… um, sick everywhere. She wasn’t vomiting, if you get my drift. We cleaned it up, and I went into the kitchen and noticed that a new package of treats was opened, and half of them were gone. Matt said something to his dad the next day when I was out with some friends, and he just gave him a blank stare. Whatever. I hid all the treats in the closet. If he was going to be that dense about it, I wasn’t going to risk my cat’s health (and weight!) over it.

He found the treats. Within the past week and a half, he has not only finished that bag of treats that I had found half-empty before, but yet another bag. And now? ANOTHER bag of treats is half gone. I hid it. In a drawer. I don’t know what to say to him. I really don’t. Matt told him that the cat got sick everywhere, and it didn’t get through his thick skull then. What do I do? I don’t want to cause tension between us, but I definitely don’t want my poor cat to be using my whole apartment as a litter box, either. Sigh.

Today, I signed up for the Self One Month Makeover. It’s 30 days to get organized. Anyone who knows me knows that I’m always looking for a new “trick” for organizing my life. The bad part is that all of these “tricks” rarely work well together, and that results in frustration and even more chaos than when I started organizing!

That’s actually one of my biggest downfalls when it comes to organizing and cleaning. People probably don’t even realize that I’m SO picky about how clean things are, because they’re always a mess! The problem is, I get in a mood where I want to clean, clean, clean, but it’s so overwhelming that I don’t even know where to start. Eventually I stress myself out and sit down, amongst the mess, and give up. I know, quitters never win, but tell that to my bedroom!

I think this 30-day plan will help me! Like today. All I had to do was make my bed. That’s it! Make my bed. And I’m done. And you know what? With the bed made, my room really does look better.