It’s just past 3 pm now and I’ve already done more than I do on most days. I’m dressed, like I said I would be, in regular clothes instead of pajamas. I’ve eaten breakfast and lunch and drank half of my water for the day, and logged it all. I’ve re-opened Unwritten with the intent to start posting a picture per day again. I’ve cleaned out my email inbox, which makes me feel so happy. I hate a cluttered inbox. I’ve cleaned the litter box, which was very necessary, even though I hate doing it. I’m getting ready to get some hot water and dish soap in the sink to soak the dishes in there, and put away the laundry that I did the other day. And as you’ve probably noticed, I’ve put up a new theme at Words Unspoken. I don’t know what it is, but I’ve got energy to be productive today.

After I do “real life” chores, I’m probably going to log in to World of Warcraft, do some daily quests, and get the rest of my honour for my PvP pants. I don’t have much left to go on them and I’ve been slacking the past few days with honour because, well, it’s not really the most important thing in my life, you know?

It’s sunny out, Matt and Mew Mew are laying in bed, I’ve got an apple cinnamon scented oil candle burning, and a big jug of water next to me, and everything just feels right with the world.

It’s the very beginning of a new year, which for a lot of people means a fresh start. Matt thinks it’s nothing different than another day, but for me, I think it’s a perfect chance to reclaim my life. I made a lot of mistakes in the past year, which I’m not going to go into here. But now is the time for me to have a clean slate, a new beginning, and a fresh start.

Could I be any cheesier? Probably not. But that’s okay. Nobody said I can’t be cheesy on here!

I have a lot of things that I want to start doing. Now that I’ve had a couple weeks off from the gym, I’m going to start going regularly again. I’ve done it before, and then I let my depression get the best of me and found every possible excuse that I could. Yes, I was sore. No, I didn’t have a key. But that shouldn’t have stopped me. I should just go and do it because it’s what I need to do.

I’m going to stop biting my nails. This has been a bad habit of mine for as long as I can remember. I currently have two fingers on my right hand with long-ish nails, and I hope the rest will catch up to them instead of giving up on me.

I’m going to keep drinking as much water as I have been, which won’t be hard. I will start eating more meals in the day again, because I’ve stopped eating regularly again.

The last thing is a bit strange, but I know my friends will understand if they know me well enough. I’m going to spend more time being a functional human being. Instead of rolling out of bed and hopping on the computer, I’m going to get up, have a cup of tea and/or some breakfast, and change OUT of my pajamas. I got a few new pairs for Christmas and it dawned on me - that’s pretty much all I wear. I shower, I shave, I brush my teeth, but I don’t wear my jeans or nice tops. I don’t usually do my hair or makeup, either. Think what you will, but it’s just the way I’ve been lately.

All of these things about me are things that will be hard to stick with, but things I need to do for myself. I’m done hiding in my little shell here, done with not living my life in the way I need to!

Anyway, with all that said, I’m out of here. Going to go hang out with Matt’s siblings. Just because it’s after midnight doesn’t mean new year’s eve can’t be fun, right?