I’ve been thinking a lot lately of what’s going to happen with my board, Midnight, and I think I’ve finally come to a conclusion. I’m going to be restarting it - wiping the database clean and starting again. A lot of the founding members have left or forgotten about it and lately it’s just a negative experience for me to even go there, and it shouldn’t be, because it’s my board! So I’m starting over, and making it less of a private project and more of a community. I’m in a different place in my life, in a way, than when I started the board and I don’t need the negativity floating around it like it was starting to do. So, that’s my decision! I’ll be announcing it here when it’s finished, and everyone who’s reading this is welcome to join!

I do! I am so tired from my workout today that it’s not even funny. Add to that bringing up a week’s full of groceries after all of that, and we live on the 6th floor. It’s worth it, though. Days like today I feel like I can do anything!

My talk with the trainer went incredibly well. She gave me images to show where I could be in three months and then in 6 months, then a year. I can make crazy progress if I keep going three times a week and follow my plan. We’re even eating better lately! I’ve gotten out of my “funk” somehow and come up with good recipes that are healthy and that Matt will eat. We haven’t had fast food in days! Check some of the meals we’ve had for dinner lately here.

Today I really was brave with my workout. I went in early for a class to get a regular workout done BEFORE the class. Here’s what I did:

• Warmup: 5 minutes on the treadmill, 2.5 speed
• Lower Back: 12 reps, 95 lbs.
• Leg Extension: 12 reps, 50 lbs.
• Leg Curl: 12 reps, 65 lbs.
• Leg Press: 12 reps, 80 lbs.
• Seated Row: 12 reps, 50 lbs.
• Chest Press: 12 reps, 30 lbs.
• Shoulder Lateral Raise: 12 reps, 20 lbs.
• Bicep: 10 reps, 30 lbs.
• Tricep: 10 reps, 30 lbs.
• Ball crunches: 12 reps.
• Cardio: 17 minutes, treadmill, 2.5 speed.

All of this followed by a Body Flow class - Yoga, Pilates and Tai Chi for an hour. Can you see why I want to melt into a puddle now?

Mew Mew is almost completely back to normal now. Jumping around, playing, eating, talking… Yes, talking. Or meowing. Whatever you want to think of it. She’s always been a chatty cat and while she was recovering she was almost silent. I like her this way much better. Of course, being the overprotective cat mama that I am I’m watching her very closely - I don’t want her to pull a stitch or anything. She has to get them out in about a week.

She’s still around! She’s very groggy and very… strange, but she’s recovering. She’s eating now, and uses her scratching post. She looks very skinny, but considering what they did, that makes sense. But all my worrying, as everyone told me, was for nothing. She’s alive and here and my bad luck with cats is over. I was so scared though.

I have a personal training consultation on Friday morning. I’m excited for it because I do need some sort of direction. I’ve been at my plateau for too long and I just need to change it up! It’ll be nice to see some sort of definitive goals and what to do.

Mew Mew is going to get spayed tomorrow. This is totally routine and necessary, I know, but I’m still freaking out.

I’ve had bad luck with cats going to vets and never leaving. My first cat when I was young was overdosed on her anesthetic when she was being put under and never woke up. Another cat I had went into the vet for a simple procedure and had to be put down because they found a tumor that was causing him pain and could not be removed.

I’m so afraid she’s going to go in the morning and not come back. I know it’s pathetic but she just… She can’t not come back, you know? Ugh.

I’m feeling super lonely right now because my AIM won’t connect, so I can’t talk to anyone.

I went to dinner with Matt last night. It was delicious, as it always is when we go there. I even got something different today, which is saying a lot! Chicken parmesan, yum!

After who knows how many months of feeling irritated because I was both not losing weight and actually regained some, I dropped three pounds this morning. Just like that. Out of nowhere. I will not question it or over analyze it, though, because I prefer to be blissfully unaware of the fact that it might very well come back.

I didn’t go to the gym today because of weird timing and going out to dinner, but I did a 30 minute core workout in Yourself! Fitness. I’m so proud of myself. Though I can honestly say that I HATE doing planks. More than any one person should hate anything. I burned a lot of calories and worked some muscles, so I’m happy.

I think I’m going to go tend to my sore muscles and maybe soak in a nice warm bath with candles and fluffy towels and an audiobook on my awesome iPod. Sounds nice, doesn’t it?