I know most of you have not read YOU On A Diet but for those who have, you’ll appreciate what I need to say.

It’s time for a You-Turn for me. I need it. I’m very bloated, which has underlying reasons other than “I suck at eating healthy” but still, I need to work on it. Starting today, I’m getting back in focus. Gym tomorrow.

Tracking my calories. Tracking my exercise. No useless snacking for the sake of snacking. What’s the point? I kick my craving, but then I’m up a hundred pounds for the next week because I HAD to have those chips, HAD to have all that sodium and eventually just HAD to have the water retention. No, it’s silly. Not worth it.

I was tagged by Caitlin and Katy!

The meme consists of four questions requiring four answers, and then the tagging of four people

4 Jobs I’ve Had in My Life:
- Receptionist
- Service biller
- Customer service manager
- Front end lead

4 Shows I DVR
I don’t DVR anything, however I always watch (even after the fact):
- Grey’s Anatomy
- House
- American Idol
- America’s Next Top Model

4 Places I’ve Been
- Michigan
- Halifax, NS
- Spain
- Virginia Beach

4 Favorite Foods
- Dorito Chicken
- Mexican
- Italian
- Chinese

4 People I Tag
- Stacy
- Angel
- Zi
- Chrissy

For the first time in over a week (Yes, bad, I know…) I went to the gym today. I did a body jam class and some weights. Not a lot, but enough to get me through. I didn’t count calories today (I should have, but forgot) but I will be starting to track my food again tomorrow. I’m thinking about getting up and doing just a body flow class to get myself going again. Not to mention I’ll be able to see the trainer I’ve visited lately and it’ll make me feel better!

As a reward for going to the gym today I bought myself a small box of raspberry herbal tea. It was a small splurge (only $2!) but it’s delicious! I think I’ll have a glass of that along with two carrot mini muffins for breakfast. Yum!

My workout today was:

• Body Jam (1 hour of dance/cardio - exhausting but fun!)
• Lower Back: 4 reps, 100 lbs.
• Leg Extension: 4 reps, 70 lbs.
• Leg Curl: 4 reps, 70 lbs.
• Leg Press/Squat: 4 reps, 90 lbs.
• Seated Row: 4 reps, 55 lbs.
• Chest Press: 2 reps, 35 lbs.
• Shoulder Lateral Raise: 3 reps, 25 lbs.

I skipped the cardio I’d normally do (15 minutes on the treadmill) because I was so exhausted from my class, and I skipped a few weights: bicep, tricep and abs. I’m okay with that, though. For over a week off and being sick, I think I did pretty well!

Today was an emotional day. I’m okay, there’s nothing wrong, but I just felt emotional. I was angry, then depressed, then happy. I wish I knew why, but I figured it would pass, and it’s seeming to. I think I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

Because I wasn’t feeling too hot, we ordered pizza. Yum! I’m a fan of Domino’s, even though I know pizza isn’t the healthiest. I’m still determined to start fresh tomorrow. The forecast says there isn’t supposed be snow, so I’ll be able to go to the gym. I’m thinking I’ll go in the early evening and go to a body jam class.

I’m playing the Sims again. I’m loving the new expansion pack! I’ve got my second Legacy generation to the point of being toddlers. I hope I can get further this time than the other times. The new expansion makes it more fun to play, though!

It seems to be getting warmer outside, and with the sunshine and a nice even breeze coming in the window, I’ve felt more productive every day this week than before. I hope this holds through until Monday, when I go to the gym/grocery store. I was mistaken for a pregnant woman the other day and about wanted to cry. I blame this one two things though: I was wearing a flowy shirt with jeans that are too big, so it probably looked like I was wearing maternity clothes, and the lady was a bit older and a bit batty. However, this brush with embarrassment has steeled my resolve to lose this weight.

I think I have a serious body image problem. I think I see myself as much bigger and much more disgusting than I am. Because of this, I’m doing everything I can to improve my self-image. I think that with every thing that I “pat myself on the back” for and everything that I do to enhance my physical appearance will be worth it in the end. Take today for example. At the grocery store yesterday, I saw the most adorable skirt. It was calf-length and black and flowy and soft, and best of all, it was only $19! Since I still had some Christmas money left over from my Grandma, I decided I’d get it. But not only would I buy the skirt, but I’d wear it. As I’ve told a few people lately, I’m getting more and more settled into my role as a housewife and I’d honestly like to start dressing like wives and mothers dressed in the 1950s. Before you start thinking I’m crazy, just remember how tame it is in comparison to what a lot of people are doing these days!

So, I bought the skirt. And even though I spent today cleaning, I wore that skirt and my black shoes all day. Even up and down to the basement for laundry. And I’ll tell you, I felt better about myself already! For those who are wondering, here’s a picture of the skirt:

Also, speaking of pictures, my DITL from yesterday is up now. Go look at it, if you want!

It’s amazing what a clean room will do to your mood. I’m so content right now. My desk is clean, my floor is vacuumed, and all the laundry except for a basket of socks is put away. What a great evening.